With all the Asia hype in the last few days, I started wondering if I could cut it as an Asian female Christian rapper. I mean, if anything I could do spoken word. Writing poetry is something I started doing when I was in grade school. In high school, it helped me use metaphor and capture deeper meaning in rhythm and rhyme that I could not express through conversation. I stopped when I got to college, because I started being able to write people actual letters. As I mature, I find myself becoming less cryptic, but it was nice to flex my flow muscles once more.
I just wrote this on the bus today (like the old days):
the devil had me in chains
he was consuming my brain
i couldnt breathe, cuz i was suffocating–
drowning in pain….
my life was covered in shame
cuz i had took all the blame
i didn’t understand the refuge
that i had in His name
so how am i the only one who thought this isn’t okay?
that the world can do whatever and i didn’t get no say…
people listen, but they thinkin that there’s nothin they can do
so, what i’ve learned is that this bondage was for me to refuse…
you’re a victim up until you know enough is enough,
cuz the only way the devil wins is when you give up
so i’ve learned to take my focus off these futile attacks
cuz when you know that you know, you know there’s no turning back
I’m surrounded by poets and rappers in Santa Cruz. So, I was like, if this Jaeson Ma guy can flow, then so can I. Then I got inspired by Jin Au-Yeung, who I remember watching on Freestyle Fridays. I was totally impressed back then, and was blown away by his Christian lyrics recently especially in contrast to the things he’d rap about back in the day.